Sunday, 11 January 2015

A fork in the road...

When I'm writing my blog posts I always imagine myself as looking like Carrie Bradshaw from Sex and the City...just without the sex...and well...the city as instead of Carrie we have..."Caite and the...."...and that's it...doesn't have quite the same ring does it? haha.

The start of a New Year usually means reflection on the year that has just passed and is part of our history and I am one of those people although I haven't just looked back at the past twelve months but the last 2-3 years.

I'm in a very different place than I was a couple of years ago.  I was just getting started in my career, becoming comfortable in my own skin and realising there were things about myself I wanted to change for the better.  2012 was a turning point in my life and at the end of that year it made me realise what I wanted out of my life.  After experiencing a loss in my life I threw myself into my career and being with my friends and family, a few dates here and there but no one serious in my life and realised that there was only ever going to be me who could make me a better person.  Don't get me wrong, I wasn't and never have been a horrible person but a little self improvement never hurt anyone right? haha.  The last 2 years have been spent focused on me and as a result...

2014 was a year of mixed emotions for me. I had so many great experiences and fun times with friends and family.  I went on some great holidays and adventures and spend the year having a lot of fun.  I also went through a horrible experience and time for the first half of the year dealing with a situation I was dragged into and didn't like how I was treated...and I am reluctant to get myself again.  As a result I am now very cautious and wary of people and the reason they're in my life but still very much open to people coming back into my life...but this is how I am dealing with things that come into my life...

The latter part of the year saw my best friend's Mum pass away which was awful, and I felt helpless because I knew nothing I could say would make her feel better and nothing would make life the same ever again for my friend...but just being there for her no matter the time day or night was all that she wanted, whenever she decided she needed it.

2014 and leading into 2015 has seen me come to a fork in the road that is my life...I left my job and have been taking time out to figure out where I am heading next...the fork in the road has the options of staying here and seeing where life takes me personally and professionally or the other road is moving to North America to work and see what the world has to offer me.  There has been expressed interest in me to work for them over there and I am following them up to see what opportunities I would have, as I have come to realise that you cannot rely on others no matter how much you want to.

I don't know what life has in store for me at the moment and yes I know a lot of the time we make our own luck and our decisions shape our lives but it's those external factors that influence our decisions and that's the confusing thing for me now...but I'm sure it'll all work out just how it's supposed to be.

When I have things on my mind cleaning is my go to in order to try and clear my mind...I have been cleaning around the house with my headphones plugged into my phone and a song I haven't heard in so long came on and I remembered how much I liked it...I was singing it at the top of my voice haha.

who doesn't love a little bit of Lonestar haha :-)

The next couple of weeks are going to be interesting that's for sure haha...2015 is going to be a defining year for me but no matter which way life takes me I have so many fun things planned...the planned obstacle course fun runs won't be the only things that will be in my way  and in the way of what I want to achieve I'm sure... 

Sunday, 4 January 2015

Welcome to 2015

I hope everyone is having a wonderful start to 2015.

It's been a busy and fun filled few weeks for me over the Christmas and New Year period.

I managed to make it to Wales to see my Dad, Step Mum and siblings the weekend before Christmas which was so nice to see everyone there.  I really don't go home to Wales often enough.  Every time I do go I am reminded just how much I love it and how much I miss it.  My Dad's home is in a quiet little spot and going there means lots of time to think, relax and enjoy the tranquillity.  I got to pick up my brother and sister from their last day of school which is always so much fun when I get to surprise them.  I had a mini Christmas with them before returning home.  

During the Christmas week I was at home with my Mum and Step-Dad which is always a great time and yep, I got spoilt by my Mum because she loves fussing over me haha.  I definitely over indulged over the Christmas and New Year period especially when there were buffets with party foods on offer.  I love anything that I can just keep grazing and snacking on...I'm now back to eating healthily.

Then there was...Snow snow snow! The beautiful white blanket that falls from the sky!! It was beautiful until it brought the world around me to a standstill.  It snowed on Boxing Day,  you would think that we had had several feet of snow the way that it affected the roads,  people's ability to...well...basically function.  Roads didn't have salt on them despite the snow being forecast (makes a lot of sense right??).  We had at most...6 inches of snow during that period of time...not really enough to make the world stop.  

Thankfully by New Years Day it had gone which made driving my brand new car a lot easier...and well...pretty awesome!! haha.  I'm not saying I'm a bad driver by any means but...well...I'm a girl and mix that with a powerful car along with snow...and well...lets just say I'm glad the snow has gone.  I didn't get chance to take any pictures of my new car when she was super duper brand new because of the stupid snow and then her being dirty because of the roads so it'll have to wait until I've cleaned car is a she haha

New Years Eve was spent with friends and having a party at my house.  As always whenever I get the opportunity to spend the night with so many of my wonderful friends I love it.  We certainly managed to get through of festive and celebratory drinks that night along with lots of food (made lovingly by my good self haha).   Last night I went to another party this time it was a Bollywood themed party which meant I had the opportunity to get dressed up...

I had so much fun last night, having drinks, attempting bhangra dancing, eating lots of yummy food (I won't re-start my healthy eating until tomorrow haha).  

2015 is starting to fill up already for me.  I am in the process of figuring my next move career wise, all I know at the minute is it is 95% likely that it will take me to North America, I'm just waiting to see where.  In addition to that I have a wedding in the summer (not mine of course, I'll be an eternal spinster I'm sure at the minute haha, one of my best friends is getting married - another weekend off  from healthy eating haha).  I am also in the process of organising a holiday somewhere nice and warm because although the weather isn't as cold here as it is in other parts of the world it's cold enough for me at the minute. I am looking forward to a couple of friends and I getting on a plane and heading somewhere with a great beach, good food and drink (I'll take a week off my healthy eating again at that point haha) and a place where we can relax and do activities like scuba diving and getting out and about to see the local area.  I'm ready for a little bit of this already...

Yep...I think I'm ready for some sun haha. 

A couple of friends and I are also hoping to fit in a trip to New York at some point as well, I have a feeling that out bank accounts will be taking a serious battering if we make it to New York haha.

2015 has already started with life lessons and people in my life who are proving themselves not to be the kind of people I thought they were.  I always start off seeing in the best of people and even when they do someone to hurt me, I still try to see through it all and see the good but when people continue to hurt me, I have to draw the line...after all I'm a Sagittarius...we are independent, feisty, the sweetest people until someone p*sses us off and if we are unsure of a situation then we get out of  it haha.

I'm excited for what 2015 has in store for me!!!